"I come to the field every day looking over my shoulder," he said. "Every time I see [general manager] Ed Wade or [assistant GM] Ruben [Amaro Jr.] walking by, I think
they're going to come talk to me. Every time I have a bad outing, I wonder if I'm going to get the call. This is the first year where that's happening, and I don't know what's
going to happen. It's not something I'm accustomed to."
Signed to a $500,000 contract in January, Adams realizes he could be expendable when Kenny Lofton comes off the disabled list, which Wade said could happen on Tuesday. If the organization opts for 11 pitchers, Adams, Geoff Geary or Robinson Tejeda would be at risk.
Geary has pitched well and appears safe in the long relief role. While Adams has struggled mightily, the organization may want Tejeda to see regular action in Triple-A.
The Phillies could stay at 12 pitchers, meaning either the recently acquired Endy Chavez or Ryan Howard would be returned to Scranton. The process will be repeated when
Jim Thome returns a few days after that.
Either way, Adams is frustrated with how his season has gone, and hopes his career resume will carry some weight. It's been tough adjusting to irregular activity, and he finds himself in a Catch-22.
He feels that he pitches better with regular work, but his numbers shouldn't earn him that opportunity. His appearance on May 10 -- in which he allowed four runs in a third of an inning -- was his first since May 2.
"When I haven't been out there in eight days, I don't have any room to make a mistake. When you're not in a groove, it's not a good feeling," Adams said. "I've started so horribly and put myself in such a hole that it's going to
take so many scoreless appearances to get my numbers respectable to where I can look at them.
"When you're losing, everything is under a microscope. The fans want to get rid of somebody, and the media wants to stir something up. I look at myself in the mirror and I look at my performance, and think I'm the low man on the totem pole. I've always been honest with myself and that's how I feel right now. The numbers don't lie. They've
been pretty bad."
Elizardo Ramirez gets the start Sunday from the Reds. Phillies fans may remember the 22-year-old as the pitcher who went from Class A to the Majors for a
glorious month last season.
He is starting because Brandon Claussen sprained his left ankle. Ramirez pitched 15 innings for Philadelphia last season before getting traded as part of the Cory Lidle deal. He said he's ready.
"Last year, I used to get a little nervous when I pitched, but now it's like the Minors, like pitching in Triple-A," Ramirez said through an interpreter. "In the time
I've been up here, the changeup and the fastball have worked. Really, all of my pitches have worked. My biggest priority is doing well, because I want to stay up here.
"Starting Sunday is very good. I'm ready to win. I feel great. It's just ironic that my first start is against the Phillies. But I'm not nervous at all."
Right-hander Gavin Floyd continues to struggle for Triple-A Scranton/Wilkes-Barre. Since being optioned, the prospect is 0-4 with a 9.16 ERA.
"I don't think I, or we, did him any favors by keeping him in the bullpen (in the Majors)," said Wade. "But after his start against St. Louis, we felt he deserved to stay up here a while."
Jim Thome ran on the field again before Saturday's game and said he was fine. He hit in the batting cage on Friday and Saturday. The team is still optimistic that Thome will return for next weekend's series against the Orioles. ... Kenny Lofton also looked fine taking his hacks during batting practice. He is expected to be activated on Tuesday. ... Lefty Cole Hamels threw on the side Friday without any problems, and was scheduled to pitch off a mound on Saturday.
Vicente Padilla (0-4, 9.74 ERA), who starts Sunday's series finale, hasn't been too good this season, and that continued on May 10.
He hasn't pitched more than five innings in any of his five starts this season, and hasn't shown the electric fastball with movement. As a result, his breaking pitches are much more recognizable -- and hittable.